There’s a voice deep inside of me that echoes my doubts. That whispers lies of unworthiness. That reminds me in subtle ways that other people can do it better.
There is a part of me that is stretching as far as I can to grasp this dream I have. Then, another part of me that has already slumped against the wall, already given up.
It’s not easy. Having a dream. Which is what this is for me. It’s not a goal. It’s not a square box on a check list that I want to mark off and move on. It’s a dream. It’s a full-fledged, living, breathing dream. A tangible thing that I want to manifest into my life. I want to be a writer.
The truth is that I’ve wanted this for a while, I just never made time for it. There’s been a season in all of our lives when we have pushed our goals or dreams to the side. When we have declared that the timing wasn’t right. When we looked at a future date and promised ourselves that we’d start then.
People wait for the right time to reach for their goals until they’re twenty-two or forty-two. Until their financially stable or their family is well knit. Until their career is just right, or the perfect opportunity presents itself. Until a certain feeling settles in. Until they think they can be the best. What we all seem to miss is that there is no right timing. There is just time and how we choose to use it.
Time is both the fastest thing in the world and the slowest thing in the world, depending on the situation. Waiting for the right time to start a goal, to focus on our dreams, is letting time steal precious opportunities away. Time is both long and short, depending on the life. Waiting for the right time to invest in yourself, to nurture your talents, could lead to not being able to do those things at all.
I’ve waited long enough to stretch out towards this dream. Waited enough time to brush my fingers along the tangible edges of it. But I will waste no more time. I will give no time to the echoes of doubt because the truth is: Someone will always do it better if you never do it at all.
There is no right time. There is only right now. What will you do with it?
Let’s continue the conversation:
Have you had a goal or dream that you’ve kept pushing off for the ‘right time’ to come?
Did the right time present itself or did you decide to grasp hold of time and make it yours?
What will you do with the times you have left, even if it’s just one more day?
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Love this Leanne! You must be inside my head! You echo my thoughts, but I repackage them and write in a more how-to manner. You go!